swimsuit

We went to the party
You took off your shirt
We got in the hot tub
And goddamn, it hurt
Can't tell if I was triggered
I guess the crying was a sign
I left for five minutes
To get my swimsuit
They don't know I made myself
Throw up in my bathroom
Because I couldn't bear
If you saw how I let go of my life

And am I so embarrassed
That I don't trust your love?
You're dating my good friend
And you're not breaking up
Because it's so damn obvious
You're so in love
I guess I'm just repeating my past mistakes

Leave me high and dry
And take away my tired nights
Sleep collects in the circles under my eyes
Keep me by your side
And don't make me hate my life
I'm the small-role, one-sided lovers
I'd rather die

Envy or love?
How am I supposed to know?
I starved myself all day
Just holding out hope
That I'd look good enough
To be even comparable to you
And all of our friends
Said that I look so good
But I look in the mirror
And I've never understood
How people see me beautifully
When I'm next to you

Leave me high and dry
And take away my tired nights
Sleep collects in the circles under my eyes
Keep me by your side
And don't make me hate my life
This book will never be friends-to-lovers
I'd rather die

Why'd you have to be in love with her?

Oh, you know you're hot
I can't bear it much longer
We went through the same shit
But it made you stronger
And I can't fucking fathom
How you ended up on the bright side

We went to the party
You took off your shirt
I'm so damn in love with you
And goddamn, it hurts
I don't do it because of you
But you certainly don't help



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Writer(s): Corbin Forester
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