Solace

Yea I never meant to hurt nobody
I'm sorry if I did when I embarked on my personal journey
Had to take that one alone
I was just trying to find myself
Yea I was lost
Out of darkness and into light
I found god

Be in my own world alone with self discipline
Planting seeds but feel like there's no one ever listening
Be trying to read they mind like yea that man straight tripping
Conspiracy theories and drugs done fucked up his vision
And he don't come around no more, be acting funny and shit
Be all quiet in the corner every time we visit
Has such a negative aura, bring everybody down
It's like he never wanna smile, he only wanna wear a frown
Avoid all family functions and skip all funerals
No longer break bread with soul food, you know, the usuals
And since he turned vegan, always being difficult
Got all spiritual and shit, act like he joined a cult
Jamie think he better than everybody on his high horse
Like a perfect stranger, I bet he wouldn't die for us
Just let him be in misery and drain his life force
Fuck that, I block all negative thoughts and stay on my course
We balance light and darkness up on our shoulders
God and the devil at war, they raising soldiers
Just think of heaven and hell like a tale of two cities
God and Satin in battle, internal tug of war disease
Left wing and right wing mind frame hemisphere
Masculine and feminine, from black to white, we live in fear
Hard to find balance in truth outside gray area
The media is meant to divide, causing mass hysteria
North, east, west, south, three hundred and sixty degree views
Propaganda scandal handlers, we tune into the news
I brokse up out of the cage, start thinking outside the box
No longer fearing death, I guess I'm just crazy like a fox
The passed loved ones stay in my heart and in my memories
Like you never left, I hear your breath and feel your energies
Grandparents Winston, Celeste and miss Lenora too
Aunt Pat, uncle Pete, little Tyon and baby Zion flew
Like an Angel watching over his twin sister and his mom
Butterflies stay in their presence just to keep 'em calm
Always searching for solace so we sing a song
Church hymns uplift spirits so we sing along
We come into this world alone and leave the same way
A seed of thought is the root to the gateway
Cherish the gift of life in every present moment
And take the good and the bad like it's grace and atonement

Yea I said my peace, I hope you don't hold nothing against me
Just leave it all up in the past and call it history
We make mistakes, I know I have
We live and we learn
I'm still learning
That's show we grow
I love you ma, ma dukes
And dad, pops
Cherice, big sis
Ahmad, big bro
Hasan, lil bro
All my aunties and uncles and cousins
Nieces and nephews
I love all of y'all