Deepfake

I watch my life pass around me
I can't be found, never found me
I can't ever breathe, fuck, I'm drowning
Eyes get low, now I'm downing

I wanna be happy, is it too much to ask?
But I got a couple problems, that won't let me do that
From the look of my face to the voice in my head
That tells me I would just be better off if I was for dead
Tell them, fill me with lead and not the one from the pen
So I take another edible and go back to bed
It's a deep fake, I just gotta tread till I'm dead
So I push away it all and then I finally get rest

Don't wanna talk about my feelings, I don't feel I'm trying
I console my friends, now even they know that I'm lying
I don't get up out my bed cause it feels like I'm dying
Never go outside because I'm breaking down, I'm crying
I don't wanna talk to any therapist, I talk to you
I don't wanna blow up on your phone, I'm steady haunting you
Only time that I know that you like me is on top of you
But if you wanna leave then you can go, I am not stopping you
But I'm just bipolar, a loser, a loner
It's done now, it's over, I don't wanna grow older
She knows that I love her but my mind doesn't trust her
I take all of my thoughts and then I finally fuck off for good
CBD and THC to numb all the pain
I don't feel anger or rage, I feel annoying for days
Maybe one day I'll get laced, putting myself in the grave
I cannot live with this hate, fucking going away for once

I wanna be happy, is it too much to ask?
But I got a couple problems, that won't let me do that
From the look of my face to the voice in my head
That tells me I would just be better off if I was for dead
Tell them, fill me with lead and not the one from the pen
So I take another edible and go back to bed
It's a deep fake, I just gotta tread till I'm dead
So I push away it all and then I finally get rest
(Finally get rest)