I Ain't Gon Lie

I ain't gon' lie (gon' lie), nah, I ain't gon' lie (ayy)
I used to feel like I ain't gon' cry (DTdaKidd)
But I ain't know why (b-b-beat those drums)

I almost lost my mama to COVID, got me back focused
If you love me, it ain't enough that you told me, rather you showed me
I'm up late watching the Lakers with my baby, thinkin' 'bout Kobe
Hate that I'm stuck and snowed in, wakin' up watchin' Frozen

Learn to hide my emotions and make it hard to expose you
I left and they won without me, I guess I'm just like DeRozan
Like an auction on houses, I'm still lookin' for closure (closure)
Tryna deal with it sober

I learned that when you real, if it don't kill you when you heal, then it's over (then it's over)
I just caught a chill, I'm gettin' colder
I still got my MAC like Khalil, bought a sack like Khalil
And I'm right at home, back in the field, a soldier (a soldier)

I ain't gon' lie, nah, I ain't gon' lie (I ain't gon' lie)
I used to feel like I ain't gon' cry
But I ain't know why (I ain't know why)
That was back when I was so high
Livin' like I wasn't gon' die (like I wasn't gon' die)
Now I won't let a hour go by
I got feelings that I won't deny

I almost lost my daddy to a seizure, couldn't believe it
Caught me by surprise after takin' my heart out the freezer
Crazy, I never learned to forgive, that's why I'm grievin' (grievin')
Trauma I dealt with since a kid, which led to drinkin' (drinkin')

I just had a panic attack, I was barely breathin' (breathin')
Wonder where the Xanax be at when you really need 'em (need 'em)
Used to abuse 'em, I thought it was therapeutic
I always was getting zooted, if I wasn't makin' this music, I'd lose it

Truth is nine on me like Vucevic
Paranoid a Judas might cross me like a crucifix
Lookin' for love, nobody taught me how to do the shit
My biggest fear is gettin' caught up with a groupie bitch
(Nah, for real)

I ain't gon' lie, nah, I ain't gon' lie (I ain't gon' lie)
I used to feel like I ain't gon' cry
But I ain't know why (I ain't know why)
That was back when I was so high
Livin' like I wasn't gon' die (like I wasn't gon' die)
Now I won't let a hour go by
I got feelings that I won't deny (I won't deny)

(DTdaKidd)
(B-b-beat those drums)