house tour (feat. Ev Linett)

A memory stands outside my door
An old acquaintance lost to the night
A shockwave sent straight to my core
A thought begs its way back to life
It hasn't lived here in years, plus maybe some more,
since it tore down my walls and extinguished the lights
This home is not as before so I'll give you the tour
Ask as many questions as you'd like

I been debating
Should i welcome you in
Grab your coat at the door
A glass a water to sip
It's been minute
Since I opened up more
I got a couch with some cushions
That's at the start of the tour
See how I'm living
Got some dust in the corner
Mind swept outta sight
My heart is never in order
It's kinda different,
I've grown wary of course
Of all the company I keep close
Especially of yours

But I've been missin
All the words your tongue would endorse
Play me a song about a lover
But the chords were laborious
I been trippin
Please remove your shoes it's important
You left your mark on me before and
I just swiffered the floors
Oh that's my kitchen
My fridge is open to forage
Help yourself to whatever
And grab your beverage of choice
Have you eaten?
Personally there's a pit in my stomach
That I been tryna toughen out
No meal's been fillin the void

Reminisce a memory scattered like
charcuterie boards
Feel the warmth of the wine
Before we poppin the cork
Intimately thinking
We should mix up the visit
Nothing specific off limits
superficial, significant
Other business unfinished
Our hips with distance diminished
In a closer position
Than we should really be giving

But we been here before
And I was wishing for more
From an inch to my border
To the depth of my core if
We go linking our torsos
Not immune or immortal
If we go down that portal
Memory will live in these corridors
I already hear these noises, I mistake for your voice
Question my choice to mistake your promise for always
And now my bedrooms not a peaceful haven I can escape to
My mind is always racing while my dreams tryna to chase you

Pull the window blinds up as soon as sunrises
I can see you walking up my block aint no surprises
Play it casual, you can see through all my disguises
Careful with my words but you see where my eyes is
And some nights just one sight is two steps from crisis
Should I wave when you pass by? I can't tell where the line is
Had so much left to say but just kept it to myself
Now I'm surviving this home alone, keeping it private
These walls so thin, neighbors can hear all my time spent
Swearing I've moved on, but damn what a lie that it is