Megalomania

I don't want riches guess that makes me immaterial
Tendency to ghost my DMs cemeterial
Only way I cope is feeding jokes unto my weary soul
Careful what you bite off present company would all prefer you choke
I'll invoke a phantom hangmans noose if you'll lend me your throat, don't encroach that's the purpose of the moat
So hop off like a plague of frogs maybe even croak
I don't care for recognition let my legacy be miscredited quotes
I have a dream within a dream upon some further inspection I misinterpreted the scene from it's inception
Since it's my mistake then who do I blame for misdirection,
Oh me?
When will I learn my lesson?
I'm best off self taught
So I'm
Checked out, cut off
You'd think that'd make me less fraught
But nothing says don't do that again quite like a bruised ego
Embrace the crash and burn, treat it like your new amigo
Who lives forever in you now all treatment is placebo
Take a leap of faith turn from Anderson to Neo
Gotta hand it to you son, didn't see that one coming
You learned to buffer conflicts well and I'm convinced you're equipped to coexist
If you manage to recover from all your guilt trips and make the shift from conscript to permanent ritualist
It's surreal to feel at odds with who's trapped inside your body
One of thems a good kid the other braggadocious and haughty
Definitely made the naughty list
Now I'm listless
Drifting vast oceans with the big fish
Out of my depth Jesus Christ as my witness
I sway from breaking doors down to begging for forgiveness

I am penultimate I am befit
I am as good as it ever will get
I have ascended your pedestal now I'm a menace to anything effable I am intangible sentences sent in full straight to a sepulcher bars in the furnace all gold and lamentable build me an effigy earnestly worship me splendid surrender now render the earth to me
Build a new dynasty thousand year legacy
Outlive us all even if it's the death of me
Not going quietly push past the redline perplexed that I haven't peaked bittersweet sting of defeat
Forcing me forward I'm gritting my teeth
What am I after It's getting too hard to see, nothing to breathe at the heights I've reached
I'm above everything crown me your king
Who am I kidding I'm lower than dirt
All this bravado's a lot to exert
No one is fooled but the ones just as hurt
I promise you everyone else is alert
The horde is awake, the horde is alive
The gore of apocalypse stops being fun once you actualize
I'll admit, I need to get a grip, rid of this hollowness, leave the abyss
don't stare for too long but blink and you'll miss
Everything that I do just contradicts
So do as I say and not as I do
Awful deterrence for curious fools
Like leaving a lighter right next to the fuse
No greater self sabatoge
Right from the start we've been setup to lose
But our destination is still ours to choose