Ego Proxy

Instill dissembling
Secondhanded being
Pouring through the seams
Essence lost to me
Enter lucid dream
Devout fallacy
Sum illusory
Ego by proxy
Instill dissembling
Secondhanded being
Pouring through the seams
Essence lost to me
Enter lucid dream
Devout fallacy
Sum illusory
Ego by proxy

Reach behind the veil
Pull yourself from me
Write unto yourself
Write a symphony
Each word and sound a single piece of you
Like a puzzle put together painted over plainly let it bleed through
No pause for the painstaking process of assembly
Take that brush to any vibrant color you can reach
Aught to cover that dull piece now resting on an easel
Easier than trying to fit the heavy burden of our imperfection through the eye of a needle
Is the ego so feeble?
Does this mask protect us from our own social upheaval?
So ingrained in our hearts and matters of the cerebral?
To unearth the true self how much further must we go?
Strip away distortion to hear the pure tone
Speak now with clear throats
You're not a footnote
You won't be swallowed
Into the maw of the collective unconscious as Jung wrote
Pen your life story without invisible ink
Sans a ghost writer axe inexplicable things
Titanic expident bound to eventually sink
Embellishment ain't as grand as you think
My proxy had a firm hold of me
Clutched in it's palm like a rosary
Tucked away where none can see
Praying for the day I'd stop self stifling, fronts cycling
Designing projections I deemed worthy of heightening
What a charlatan
Expertly crafted pristine artifice
Depart my innocence
Lift fictitious images and plaster them with symbolism onto my paiper-mâché skin
Where does proxy end and break of day begin?
Be volitant, incessantly ardent impart the self in this
Not out of selfishness
Peel away your ego proxy, let the self exist
Nix the carbon copy press of nicked identity
Imitation is not flattery it's mockery

Forgo masquerade
Let the visage fade
Refuse to venerate
That which suffocates
Forsaken charade
Cease to emulate
Volition innate
Conscience culminate
Forgo masquerade
Let the visage fade
Refuse to venerate
That which suffocates
Forsaken charade
Cease to emulate
Volition innate
Conscience culminate

We need desperately to be something more than who we say we are
We need desperately to be something more than who we say we are
More than who we say we are
More than who we say we are