Film Of Our Life

Waking up to the wet dirt smell
The smell outside the room that used to be ours
Walking down the dim lit street
Chasing for you around the corners in the waking hours

And I try my best to look good for the lens
But the chemicals numbing me make my mind make no sense

It's ironic to have to be drunk
When I'm withdrawing from you myself

The cameras that followed us follow just me
And it doesn't seem fair they can't catch what I see
Cause in the film of our life
It's not fun to watch when I'm not by your side

And wherever you are, it's outside the screens
I don't even get a glimpse of any of the scenes
But all the things in front of me
Aren't full if it's just me

Cleaning my room like you're bout to come in
Leaving our realm to forget all your sins
And I still feel like I should be the one guillotined
But all of our reign I peeled all my skin
Now

The cameras that followed us follow just me
And it doesn't seem fair they'll never catch what I dreamed
Cause in the film of our life
It's not fun to watch when I'm not by your side
I'm not by your side
You're far and I'm not by your side
I'm here
You're there
We're not side by side

And I still don't know who I am
Most importantly who I was
But I'm gathering the pages and books of my stories
To rebuild what was mine
(Rebuild what was mine)
(Rebuild what was mine)
But the cameras that followed us follow just me
And I know it's not fair I won't watch what we lived
Cause in the film of our life
It's not fun to watch when I'm not by your side