I Knew You

So much time has gone by
I can't even remember your voice
But what you did sits in my mind
And I never learned to avoid it

I thought this distance would've healed me
And I would turn into a believer again
But your cruelty isn't washing off
And now I need to love through the pain

Of knowing you, of how I begged you to let me out alive
Chained me to the ground
And watched me as I cried

And I was too young to know it all
So you licked my tears as I starved for love
And if you could've just killed me then
Why do your screams deafen me when I try to love again?

Spending days crafting reactions so you'd never be upset
Has tainted how I talk with someone who loves me back

And I thought after all this I'd be purified
But betrayal and lies never let me try
And your cruelty isn't washing off
Cause you took all of me and left me lost

And knowing you, and how I begged you to let me out alive
You chained me to the ground
And watched me as I cried

And I was too young to know it all
So you licked my tears and I starved for love
And if you could've just killed me then
Why'd you let all this sorrow become my heaven?

Why did you make me think it was normal to behave
Like I was an insect, and your love was so brave?
And now after all this time you still visit my grave
And pity the girl that you drove insane

I knew you
I knew you
I knew you and it cut through

I knew you, and it cut through as i begged for your love
And I tried to be all I thought you deserved
But I was too young to know it all
So you licked my tears as I screamed for you
And now you haunt my dreams
When I'm nearly forgetting you

And if you could've just killed me then
Why'd you let all this sorrow become my heaven