Confused Emotions

My heart and mind fighting, the inner kid frightened
My courage from the moon, cause i walk among the shadows
These voices drive me crazy, and sometimes i look restless
My hair is how my soul is, don't ask me how i'm feelin
I'm prolly way too young, for this existential crisis
Don't tell me to explain it, I don't know how to say it
I been feelin helpless, I even dialed the helpline
I take up all their judgement, cause i don't know what to say next
Life of the party, but inside me is a black hole
Fell in love with rainy days, the darks clouds grew fond of me
I never wanted fans, all i wanted was to vent on beats
I wanna take these hits, till my pain is obsolete
Accidental overdose, i been admitted twice
Love and pain synonymous, cage them like zoo animals
I ain't had my chance to heal, i'm still sustaining scars
If my heart stops beating, find the reasons in this song
I fought it every night, i hope you know i tried
Why it took so long, it baffles me
And to those who feel my music, i hope you find the help you need
My exit won't be sudden, cause i bled on every page

It feels so simple, oh so simple
I can't explain it, can't explain it
I can't explain it, can't explain it
It feels so simple, oh so simple

Hush hush, to these voices in my head
I can't even sleep, traumatized by sleep paralysis
Talkin bout it ain't gone help, my mental need analysis
Sticks and stones may break my bones, i'll take em to a sangoma
I hope my music speak for me, nigga i been crying out
Don't praise me for these records, really hope you listening
My soul been dry for a minute, so i fiend to pass the time
Momma deteriorated right in front of me, of course it left me scarred
I had to keep my thoughts together, put my focus on lil bro
And i was skipping classes, couldn't leave my momma lonely bro
That moment when she broke the news, i couldn't take it bro
The doctors said she had 3 months, but she left us on the second month
They say life has these ups and downs
Guess they trapped in the downside loops
All these records, it weren't never posed to be like this
Buried by these questions, that keep stackin inside my head
Choker chains surround my neck
I'm seeing people & i ain't talking dating bro



Credits
Writer(s): Johannes Moeti Oliphant
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