hard to love

Am I just hard to love?
'Cause no one seems to love me these days
Am I not trying hard enough?
Or is there something in the words that I say?

I'm trying not to show that I don't really know
What it would be like to have someone to hold
But maybe it's too obvious
Or maybe I'm just meant to be alone

I'm finding it hard to love
I don't wanna be heartbroken again
When I try to open up it feels like I say too much
And I'm in over my head

It shouldn't be so hard unfolding my arms
And let it somewhat fill up the space in my heart
Or maybe I'm not ready yet
Or maybe love is meant to be this hard

But I imagine, with the right person it's magic
But with the last person I have my suspicions
That she'd grab my wishes
And show me that this is a valid description of love
Now I feel so blind
Don't know how to search for the right one this time
'Cause I'm so afraid of making the same damn mistakes
There's too many I've made in my life

Guess I just don't know how to love
Maybe that's the only problem anyways
And I should learn how to trust that I will find someone
And I just need a little bit of faith
That somebody's gonna make their way around
From way up in the clouds and tell me I'm not crazy
For the things I'm dreaming about and show me that I'm good enough
And that I'm not so hard to love