in between

Not feeling too good, not feeling too bad
I'm somewhere in between
Can't tell if I'm happy or if I'm sad
I just feel like me
When everyone says that their life's going great
Don't know how to say that
I just can't feel it
'Cause I can't describe the emotions I actually have

A couple parts bitter, another part sweet
But they don't cancel out
Some days I'm so eager to get off my feet
Some days I laze around
I'm so inconsistent, don't know what it means
The internet says there's a problem with me
Am I trying too much?
Or am I not trying enough?

I'm so caught up in my head
Tell me how am I to make some sense
When I see no difference
Do I love or do I hate myself to death?

Everyone seems to be happier
And it's just making me nervous
I thought I was fine
But maybe I'm blind to all of my hurting
'Cause no one understands when I tell them what I'm feeling
Sometimes I get sad for no particular reason
Maybe I should take some time to start reflecting on myself

But it's hard to find the time to
When I'm always overwhelmed
I could eat well, I could work out
I could keep friends that I care about
But I can't keep it all in balance
I've got too many distractions

I'm so caught up in my head
Tell me how am I to make some sense
When I see no difference
Do I love or do I hate myself to death?

My indecisiveness
Can't decide
What's best between changing who I am
Or complacence

I'm so caught up in my head
Tell me how am I to make some sense
When I see no difference
Do I love or do I hate myself to death?