Letter To K (Traumatized)

I say I'm sorry
But that shit don't fix yo' heart
Back and forth
You know we been through it all
In yo' eyes
I'm the only one involved
Think I'm cheatin'
I could never do you wrong
And if I hurt you
I promise you could tell me
But keepin' all that shit inside ain't even healthy
Could die right now, won't give a fuck
But love scare me
Heartbreak of hell

We was just 'posed to get married
But you traumatized
Yeah you traumatized
And it might be my fault
And I can't take it back at all
Say I love you but I still left you traumatized
Left you traumatized
And I just know I was involved
Swear I'm sorry for it all

They tellin' me time heal wound but
What if you bleedin' out
I swear to God I'm tryna stop the bleedin'
Yo' heart givin' out
I'm like "God"
"You can't let her die on me now"
I'm like "nah"
"I'd rather you just take me out"
I tried to switch it up
Seem like you ain't give a fuck
I did my best and
Whole time I still ain't did enough
I can't even rap no mo' I'm tired
I feel like givin' up
I'll give you the ring
I'll give you the world
You can't even give me trust
I love you to death
You killin' me inside
This a different love
I miss yo' mind
I miss yo' time
I miss you givin' hugs
Wish I could lie
Tell you "go on leave I don't give a fuck"
But I give a fuck
I'll give it all
I can't give you up
I took my time with it
Mine and yo' time different
I did you bad, that was the past
That ain't even my image
That ain't even who i am for real
That ain't how I'm livin'
I'm tryna do the best with my time given

We was just 'posed to get married
But you traumatized
Yeah you traumatized
And it might be my fault
And I can't take it back at all
Say I love you but I still left you traumatized
Left you traumatized
And I just know I was involved
Swear I'm sorry for it all

If I could choos
I'd take the pain instead of you
I swear to God
Just take me back
I ain't never lied
But I'll tell the truth
I swear to God
Really think I'm lyin'
Tryna play me like I ain't loyal
Like I been a fraud
Closest thing I ever did to
Cheatin' was puttin' my finger on that rod
Did His thing when you got made
Swear you the closest thing to art
You the closest thing to perfection
The closest to my heart
How I'm the closest to yo love
You got me watchin' from afar
Sometimes I think I must be stupid
Like I don't know who you are
Sometimes I think I must be trippin'
Can't tell hate and love apart
That shit damn near ain't no different
Both gon' leave yo' ass with scars
I don't speak on my religion
But I pray, I don't wish on stars
I just prayed for you last night
I can't even put that shit in bars
Just know I prayed for you
Then I prayed for you
If you know, you know
Tell the world you mine for real
You ain't on the low
Girl I changed for you
Put in pain for you
Went insane for you
Went again my brain for you

We was just 'posed to get married
But you traumatized
Yeah you traumatized
And it might be my fault
And I can't take it back at all
Say I love you but I still left you traumatized
Left you traumatized
And I just know I was involved
Swear I'm sorry for it all