I Wish It Meant Never

I'm reaching out
I got my hand on a rail
I'm slipping out
Memories playing one by one
I'm fucking lost
Holding onto my guilt, feeling fine
I'm overdosing, tripping out of line
I suffer from the same pain
Did you find a new mistake
From my list of fuck ups I know you know
I'm the number one, the only one alone
Forever
I wish it meant never

I'm wishing for the best
My days are lesser
Drugs will make it better
Give me one more
One more time
One more time to feel what it would've been in my past life
Passed down
Lasting longer under what should've been my curse
I'm worsening
I never felt too cheap, and I never felt to empty
Sitting in the chair my brain is shocked
Body locked
Is it not enough

Praying that my day will come back
Praying for another step
Praying for another rest
Knowing I don't wanna bet that, I'm moving right
Moving to my next life
Where the words at, taking laps passing loud
Couldn't care less for the death that I left
It's a problem add another mess
Are you really gonna understand me
I don't know
I don't know when I'm wrong
But I'm never calm when around anyone else but you
Anyone else I took it from
I really need to know what's taking long
Getting hung up everyday way too long
I'm picking who to call
Never mind now I might
Nothing fitting my type
But it's alright
It's alright
What's there to miss

Misery and agony I heard that shit
I said fuck a list
Why do I keep track of what I should know
I don't know
I don't know
Why the fuck do I keep track of what I should know
I'm all alone
All alone
Alone
Alone
Yeah I'm all alone