Soliloquy

Yeah you
Music is my medicine, isolation my nemesis
Seeking help a pain, anxiety surge menaces
The clarity of my perspective, I scan the crowd like a detective
Cynicism, my new directive
Bout how many seconds has it been since you last smoked?
Ask my lungs, motherfuckers blacker than burned toast
Hate to see the fire burn low, if I tire before
My turn's over retire my microphone
In my Shakespearian ways, I've stopped fearing the grave
I drop beneath the waves to drown, least I won't go insane
Damn shame the human heart's so temperamental
Emotions like a Screwtape, tempering with your mental
Only way I can share, is on the instrumental
Or the pen and the pad, guitar jamming with the pedals
I paid my dues, sang my blues
Now the devil awaits me down under

Assist in my soliloquy, solitude and hennessy
Wish I could improve, attenuate the heresy
Kinda lost hope, but who knows?
Life's a long road, tides turn and waves roll

Been searching for ways, to contain my pain
Feel the blood through my vein
Smoking every morning to reach another plain
Of existence, for instance, appearance to maintain
Feel like a drop of champagne who got lost in the rain
The ocean of emotions in my heart must remain
You know it's a crime to go against the grain
So I find peace every night with my princess Mary Jane
My thoughts to remain unchained in my brain
No problem is my emblem, I'm not one to complain
It just all seems so vain, I hear them shouting in refrain
"Order to maintain, swamps to drain"
Starting to wonder, how will I explain
To my child, the wonders that used to fill the plains
When did humane become linked with disdain?
Too much beauty has been slain, I'm starting to go insane

Assist in my soliloquy, solitude and hennessy
Wish I could improve, attenuate the heresy
Kinda lost hope, but who knows?
Life's a long road, tides turn and waves roll
Assist in my soliloquy, solitude and hennessy
Wish I could improve, attenuate the heresy
Kinda lost hope, but who knows?
Life's a long road, just watch the dice roll

The haze of the days that I spend doing nothing
The rays of the sun barely grazing my coffin
Let me rephrase, I'm addicted to endorphins
Amazed at the quantities I smoke to forget my sins
So I take another toke of the jive
Like an octopus I shed ink to survive
Pour my heart on the paper, take a dive deep down
Let the meaning choose the words not the other way around

Assist in my soliloquy, solitude and hennessy
Wish I could improve, attenuate the heresy
Kinda lost hope, but who knows?
Life's a long road, tides turn and waves roll
Assist in my soliloquy, solitude and hennessy
Wish I could improve, attenuate the heresy
Kinda lost hope, but who knows?
Life's a long road, just watch the dice roll