Sick + Tired

I'll just fall again
I don't know why it happens
But I'll pretend
I'm sick and tired of it
I'll just fall again
I don't know why it happens
But I'll pretend
I'm sick and tired of it

I just feel so sick and tired
Every day feels like I've died
Most of the time I'm stuck with the silence
Woke up today with a mind full of violence

Can someone tell me why mood is changing everyday
It's guilt with pain
Built this way
Filled with rage
It's contageous
Maybe I should kill someone
Kill myself my thoughts are dangerous
Don't know why I've felt like this for all my life
I cant explain it

Someone help me
No one knows me
I'm just freezing
Diagnose me
Doctors turn a blind eye show me
I'm so stressed out cry till my nose bleeds

Is it enough to be convinced there's people in the other room?
I sit with clothes on in the shower drenched
A mix of wine and sertraline like

"Does anyone else see them too?"
"What do you mean? It's just me and you"
"I'm confused" "You're so delusional"
So much more than drunk as usual
Still no help just waiting lists
Quick cause I've just cut my wrists
How many times to almost die
Try suicide still no one to listens

Heavier breathing
Death decieving
I'm just bleeding
Free me please
I'm asking God to help this time
Pulls me up with His hand He's seen me

I'll just fall again
I don't know why it happens
But I'll pretend
I'm sick and tired of it
I'll just fall again
I don't know why it happens
But I'll pretend
I'm sick and tired of it

Blood stains on my jeans
Tears fall on my screen
Happier at 16
Eyes shut but I see I'm

Feeling like I'll never
Feel again I'm just a
Dead man I wake up
Again and again just to
Deal with the feeling a fight to the end of a
Life I stand up and I try to pretend

Never appriciate time till it's gone cause I
Live in the past I've been stuck here too long

Watching everyone hate on me proving them wrong
And I'm finding my therapy with every song

I'm sick and I'm tired
Watching daylight come inisde my window 5am I'm still wired
Only death can close my eyes

I gave my life to God
I still feel like I'm possesed (prison)
Swinging from a rope intrusive thoughts and im obsessed (vision)
Fall into the dark music's all that I have left
Feel like I'm about to break can someone save me from myself listen

I don't think I'll ever find the words to say just how I feel
I'll keep taking tablets hoping one day i won't feel so ill

In my head
I'll pretend
Hope this isn't how it ends
Maybe I'll be happy then
I know I'll just fall again

I'll just fall again
I don't know why it happens
But I'll pretend
I'm sick and tired of it
I'll just fall again
I don't know why it happens
But I'll pretend
I'm sick and tired of it