Hard To Believe

Is the truth in the pages
Or just from the words in your mouth
Was anything real
Or was it all just for the crowd
Why am I being punished
For questioning all of my doubt, doubt, doubt
Was anything real
Will all that is lost still be found

So I'll stop myself, I know how this story ends
Black and white starts to feel gray again
And I'll bite my tongue one more time

While I hold back all of the reasons
That I can't say what I'm feeling
Cause it might slow down the healing
And I never wanted to make it hard
To find a way to the light
When we're fighting the darkness inside
Oh I'm tired of drawing these lines
That I never wanted
While you make it hard to believe

Why is blame always shifting
And nobody owning their part
Is there really freedom
If you're staying blind from the start

So I'll stop myself
I know how this story ends
Black and white start to feel gray again
And I'll bite my tongue one more time

While I hold back all of the reasons
That I can't say what I'm feeling
Cause it might slow down the healing
And I never wanted to make it hard
To find a way to the light
When we're fighting the darkness inside
Oh I'm tired of drawing these lines
That I never wanted
While you make it hard to believe
Hard to believe
You make it hard to believe, to believe, to believe, oh

So I'll change the way that this whole story will end
Break ties with all of these once a week friends
Pull myself out of this hell I've been living in, oh

And I'll hold back all of the reasons
That I can't say what I'm feeling
Cause it might slow down the healing
And I never wanted to make it hard
To find a way to the light
When we're fighting the darkness inside
Oh I'm tired of drawing these lines
That I never wanted
While you make it hard to believe