I Dont Seem To Remember

I don't seem to remember my own past
Only the past emotions seem to last
Oh but how long will this last
The absolute torture of forgetting the actual facts
I forget the actions but the toughts and feelings can't seem to get past
I try to think back but it's like there's an invincible force keeping me back
I'm oblivious if my memories are real or not
Cause I only remember the emotions
So I have no idea if their real or not
No

I'm oblivious to my past but the toughts and feelings never seem to get past
You have no idea how hard it is to remember something you have no idea if it's real
Cause you can feel all the emotions but have no way of proving it's real
Oh no
It's like going through shit then being told it never even happend
Being invalidated about how you really feel
It's really hard not to doubt my own memories at times
Hearing constantly I'm so out of line
I remember things at the most random times

God my memory just can't seem to keep track of time
It never happend I never went through that
I'm so lost now in what went through that day
Too many fake memories now developing from other's opinions

It makes me so lost and conflicted
To what is really true now i cannot seem to separate fiction from reality
I'm now trapped in a misleading cage I ingraved for myself deep inside my mind
With no way out am I left with a bewilded mind
Unsure of reality and the real memories I left behind
What's real and what's not?
That's something I gotta figure out before it's all lost