sos 1

Is it normal to feel helpless
I've never felt more depressed
There's a sadness inside me I can't help
And a pain that just never left

I don't fit in
It's not my place
Everybody seems to be from outer space
I've never felt so alone
Waist deep in this mess
Stopping the bullets
When the knife scrapes my back

Can't see enemy from friend
Or the ones who broke me
Don't know where they went
Or why god chose me
So much pretend
Just to have another hold me
And when the day ends
I'm again lonely

Lot of downs, they told me, I'm not good enough
Broken hearts, they sold me, said "1 for the love"
But the burden on me was just too much
So when i fell why did they laugh and call my bluff?

Weren't we supposed to be kind?
Hold each other up, and not twist the knife?
I'm all for revenge but when it's right
When did everyone decide I need to die?

Selling my pride, they say it's so stupid
And I won't lie, it's fuckin' ruthless
But I don't have a choice, as i said I'm helpless
And if this keeps me alive, fuck it, it's okay

My friends don't know shit about my reality
My family can't see the pain behind my sincerity
So many people who claim to give a fuck about me
Their facade falls apart when i turn lonely

Wish it wasn't true
And just another song i wrote
But it's who I've turned into
This shit hurts so—
I wish it wasn't true
But there's only so much i can do
It's another song i wrote
Something that's too fuckin' true

I don't fit in
It's not my place
Everybody seems to be from outer space
I've never felt so alone
Waist deep in this mess
Stopping the bullets
When the knife scrapes my back

Can't see enemy from friend
Or the ones who broke me
Don't know where they went
Or why god chose me
So much pretend
Just to have another hold me
And when the day ends
I'm again lonely