Too Proud / How Do You Like Me Now?

I once sought validation from a ghost
Trying to see myself through a child's eyes
The same kid now lives the life
That they used to criticize
I seal my lips when told to
I breathe colored air
I love people who hurt me
I cut my own hair

Playing the villain in my storyline
Too many thoughts with so little time
A young boy once told me that's not allowed
That little kid wouldn't be too proud

I once sought validation through a machine
Where I have the power to portray myself differently

Edit out what won't conform
Always referencing the norm
Speak different to a camera
I'll restart my phrase
Rearrange the puzzle based on your gaze

Playing the villain in my storyline
Muting myself, letting your words define
How I see myself in a crowd
That little kid wouldn't be too proud

I want to hold their hand
And let them know I understand
How I didn't want things to go as planned
Now I don't know how much I can withstand

How do you like me now?
Am I everything you hoped not to be?
But if we played by your rules
Guarentee I'd be six feet underneath

Little boy, you have something trapped inside of you
You can't run away from what's been tattooed

Go ahead, pick at your skin
Erase your name
After all, you're just a kid, you're out of harm's way

But you have a destined plan
Designed for failure
If you disobey
It's bad behavior

Is this okay for you?
How do you like me now?
How do you like me now?
How do you like me now?