Carcass (feat. GABRIEL UTAU)

I'm supposed to be happy
But the artwork painted
On the skin of my hands
Has faded in a way
You would never understand

Stare me down like I deserve it
Looking down like I can't earn it
Everybody's looking down on me
I can feel it
A thousand eyes don't matter
When there aren't approving smiles
And even if there are
I still feel I haven't proven far enough

But I guess that's how it goes
When the voices on the radio don't stop
But I wanna try to do a little bit better
Do a little bit better
But I couldn't prove it then
And I couldn't prove it now
And it's eating me alive
I'm so done
Frustrated

Why do you put everything into a zero-sum?
You wanna fight but I wanna fly
Wanna die before I even try

I fucking know I've gotten far
Took my time to do it right
Perfected my craft
And you know what makes me laugh?
Those countless smiles don't matter
When there's flaws I can't control
But even though there are
How the fuck does that prove I can't be able?

Keep on pushing
Keep on fighting
When my hatred never stops
Keep on making
Keep creating
When this feeling never stops
Why can't they see
The paint before it's washed away?

But I guess that's how it goes
When the voices on the radio don't stop
But I wanna try to do a little bit better
Do a little bit better
But I couldn't prove it then
And I couldn't prove it now
And it's eating me alive
I'm so done
Frustrated
Oh, oh