Relief

Am I too big or is the room too small?
Stretch my arms, I can feel these walls
When they close, will I roam the halls?
Must I fall to rise? Must I rise to fall?

How you been lately?
Will I have to see?
Could I shut my eyes, be blind and freeze?
Inhibition's premonition wasn't meant to be
Intermission's coming up, I don't want to think

I don't want to feel
I don't want to hear
I don't want to think about what I held dear
Don't wanna see myself in a broken mirror
Hide behind a shield
So I don't have to heal

I don't wanna hear your truth
Was it me or was it you?
I don't wanna have to choose
But you leave no excuse
I didn't have to be a fool
You didn't have to be so cruel
And I didn't have to be your tool

The one who was normal but went on to do great things
Never gave a damn about whatever their fate thinks
How am I supposed to feel when the tech don't taste the same?
Like it's running over but they tried to fade the name
All I'm really tryna do is forever change the game
Send a message to all the kids that crave the stage
And I don't care anymore, you can lay the blame

Are they prophecies or links I haven't found yet
I'm astounded
By the way the eyes moved,
You know I, too
Kept the moment grounded
Until it resurfaced and I found it

I defined myself by drawing comparisons
I write my truth on my own now
Taught by youth and my own crown
Here I am with my own sound
Here I have my own mind cos I know now

Never let anyone tell you who to be
To your face or subconsciously
I know it's hard to be
I, too, found it hard to love me
With dangerous tendency
I just wanted to be free

I just wanted to believe
That there's something more to me
I just wanted you to see
That there's something else to be
There's so much to achieve and unweave
There's your peace
So go and find it

Build your relief