The Strive To Look Alive

Stop the press, everything a mess
You can look alive, but you are not at rest
And our ideas are flowing through your head
A million miles an hour, a lion in your bed
A lucid life you never thought you'd lead
Are you workin' every day, are you workin' just to bleed
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know

This weight is too heavy
To the point I'm queasy
Tryin' to battle it
But it's all pressurin' me
Shit life is funny
One minute you gotta grip on it
Nek Minnit
You feel your hands slip off it
Until you let your mind just flip off it
Flyin' up the handle, leavin' yourself so low
So full of pain, you almost glow
I sit alone, often dodgin' and duckin' blows
From an ill mind
Cursed long before this verse
There's nothin' you can do to nurse
The numbness I feel inside
Yet I'm not the only one who tries to hide
And I'm not the only one who's lied
About the sadness that resides deep inside
Fightin' against the current of it all
I just wish I was oblivious
Walkin' along the shore like the others
Alas, I am drowning in the river
Beaten and battered until I quiver
With thousands of other depressed souls

Stop the press, everything a mess
You can look alive, but you are not at rest
And our ideas are flowing through your head
A million miles an hour, a lion in your bed
A lucid life you never thought you'd lead
Are you workin' every day, are you workin' just to bleed
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know

Everywhere I turn, all I see
Are people wishin' to be freed
From this depression that's feedin' on the pain
Slowly as each scar marks the heart
But I continue on
Battlin' to find a rock for support
Catching my breath on the rock I sought
Throwin' back ten paces as it breaks
Reminded as my lungs fill with water
That you also trip on bricks and mortar
That everyone else is too busy for me
Desiring nothing more than a rope to be cast
Within my grasp of hope
Alas, no one has noticed the sinking
Too focused on the track to happiness
They struggled so it's not all bliss
That life is just different without the illness
Taking five steps forward and three steps back
Just growin' wearier and wearier with each of my setbacks
And the journey leaving more and more scars
Some just let go over the waterfall
And only then are we noticed at all

Stop the press, everything a mess
You can look alive, but you are not at rest
And our ideas are flowing through your head
A million miles an hour, a lion in your bed
A lucid life you never thought you'd lead
Are you workin' every day, are you workin' just to bleed
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know