Father

Father, I'm working on getting better
I'm getting closer and closer as each day passes
But I know as each day passes
So does our connection
That I lost every time I made a mistake
But that's in the past
That's the problem
The past can never be unwritten
That's the way it was written
The way that history meant it to be displayed
The way that history meant it to be portrayed
The same way that I know
That I've been hiding behind this veil
Trying to hide and push you away
Keep you away so you can't see
The kind of pain
That's going on inside of me
The kind of trouble
That I'm trying not to show you... See.
The kind of pain that's making me cry,
Making me cry,
And wish I could just fucking die
But I don't care, no more
It don't matter
But I know I want you here Beside me closer and closer

I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my hand
Knives in my heart
You build me up
And then I fall apart
Cause I'm only human

I write track after track
I write line after line
Rhyme after rhyme
But it all takes me back to the same fucking point
Every single fucking time
Reminds me of every fucking crime
That I've ever done in my life
But I'm wishing I could move on from all my sin. And I could repair all my trouble with my kin
And I feel so fucking terrible
So I take my fucking Seroquel
So I can move on
Maybe it'll knock me out for the night
I don't know
But that's only right until the morning fright comes
And it reminds me of everything that I've done
Everything I've said and I'm sorry Dad
I wish Father
I wish I didn't make you so mad - So sad
And I know
I know I ain't as rad as I treated myself in the past
I'm just a little criminal
Who's made a mistake or two
Please!!

I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my hand
Knives in my heart
You build me up
And then I fall apart
Cause I'm only human