Demos After Dark (feat. Bobbycrush)

Too busy living life, lost track of time
Said I'd be right back, save my place in line
Now I gotta face the facts, cause the blame is mine
Yeah, the blame is mine
Too focused on success, I can't settle down
But my head is getting heavy, trying to hold the crown
Feel like it's just me in this mad old town

I walk daily past my previous homes
Ten years of all this dust can add a sepia tone
It was chocolate blunt wraps and Spinrilla
I was busy learning bout the Wu and J Dilla
I was a history student, I combed through it for takes
On how to represent my values over samples and breaks
Had to peek behind the curtain just to see if I want it
And if I got it, I was certain I could honor the greats
And now I know it's not a spotlight
Used to think it was a hustle, but it's not quite
Used to think that I was rushing for the fame and the set
I don't wanna take a check unless the font right
I got veterans on my speed dial, tend to my family in the meanwhile
The thing about a garden, it only grows when the heat mild
Let it all chill for a second, take a breath
Life can pass you by while you're placing bets
Now it's nothing in the way
I'ma hit the button till there's nothing left to say
Looking like a glutton, always something on my plate
I've been keeping busy, I've been keeping to my ways
I'm on the beaches, I'm at the park
I been up with Bobby mixing demos after dark
Nodding to some birdsong, started as a lark
Lately it's occurring that I'm meeting every mark

Cause I'd rather be lonely than broke, that shit is no joke
And a toke is the only time I'll tolerate all the smoke
Trouble seeing through the haze, but double screens on all my plays
Mapping me would take you days, need an app to find your ways
Out, gifted with my mouth, I'm just chasing wealth
While these kids are chasing clout
But I'm the one without a spouse, still living at my parents' house
Trapped by comfort like a mouse, I'm coming unbuttoned like a blouse
You can't put a price on peace of mind
But I'd like to see you try
Popping tags with all my time
Got me feeling like a mime
Got me feeling like the Joker
But if I started something I'ma see it till it's over
I need closure, exposure
And maybe more composure
But I ain't slowing down, keep on marching like a soldier

Cause you don't know what you got till it's gone
And by then you're left wondering what you did wrong
All the time in the day's never finding its way back
I don't mind, it's okay, I'm forward-minded today
Cause you don't know what you got till it's good
And you never handle things the way that you should
And then it's all over, and you never get disclosure
It'll leave you feeling sober, baby, I already know

'Cause I'm done playing games
Looking at my life, no shame
Roses in my eyes, okay
Everybody hides sometimes, I put it on the line in the page
You don't know what you got till it ends
And I didn't make the music to do it for no trend
And I don't even mean to offend
I'm just making moments with my friends now