Lowering My Guard

Breakfast time I stare
Across the table at an empty chair
Life's so lonely living without you
The whole day I just think about you

But babe, Lord, I'm so lonely
Babe, Lord, I'm so lonely
Babe, Lord, I'm so lonely

I never stop the work even when I think that I could
I'm not spiritual based on the things that I took
I first seek to understand then to be understood
I appreciate the character more than the look

I used to judge the cover of the book
Which made myself appear like I'm a crook
My inner buttons wanted to be pushed
I can see the sunshine rays on the horizon

Dreams get not achieved by being idle
I'm asking the divine to be my guidance

And I'm lowering my guard
Let it be what it was,
Don't care anymore
I open my heart
Sharing the love, too long I have fought

From inner circle to outer circle
It feels like I carry thousand burdens
I'm tempted by the amount of urges
Seek connection but I'm out of service
Find my peace, allow no disturbance
The program is there, and I need to work it
I know it's hard but I got through the purges
Social interaction made me super nervous
Perfection is what modern human worship
Behaved in a way that was truly hurting
Creating a mess is too alluring
Happiness is not to be purchased
I seek validation and reassurance
But living like that will defeat the purpose
Please show me the way and give me the courage

It's time for making amends
I hope they give me the chance
I was not a really good friend
Said things that didn't make sense
Was petty when I should have forgiven them
Now I making this whole thing an end
And admit that I wasn't so innocent
My thinking used to be limited
Anxiety made me inhibited
Went from daily feeling timid
To feeling like I'm on the top of the pyramids
I cannot describe what this feeling is
I guess it's a little mysterious
When you try to find a new way of life
Because the old one appears to be meaningless

And I'm lowering my guard
Let it be what it was,
Don't care anymore
I open my heart
Sharing the love, too long I have fought

I should stop to beat myself up
Life itself is brutal enough
Now it's time for getting unplugged
Ready to give up everything that I got
My ego has to get totally crushed
My dedication is over the top
Because I don't rely on wishes and luck
Since I born I'm in kind of a rush
Nothing on earth here is permanent
But I'm acting like I'm in a tournament
Normally I can't even believe how absurd it is
Seeing through all of the surfaces
God is providing the services
He let me go through all the disturbances
Man, no one can beat my assertiveness

Lord, I'm so lonely
Lord, I'm so lonely
Lord, I'm so lonely