Emotional Sponge

Back when I was just an empty 5-year-old emotional sponge
Tip-toeing through the aftermath of silverware and mugs
The shouts and shoves happened way up above my head
So I plunged deeper inside the reclining-chair
Inside my head, it's hiding-there
You'll be safe if you just hide in there and don't be scared
You'll never be the one to cause this despair
Or even one loose hair
Infact, even if you make it through intact
And don't blow open your optic tract
You'll still be trapped!

Stay inside, cause outside is painful
Just stay in your own head instead
Stay inside, cause outside is shameful
Disdainful and blameful, playful and hateful

Stay inside, cause outside is painful
Just stay in your own head
Befriend the dread
While you watch yourself
Die slowly instead

Today I'm a 40-year-old emotional-virgin
Tip-toeing through the aftermath of staying inside
So long ago I shut my spark off
To hide from the pain
And make sure I never caused it myself
Now I've walked this earth
For 36 more years, trapped
Stuck to a boys plan to stop seeing mama beat up in the kitchen
I'm a man, who as a boy, threw away all his ambition
Where is it now?
How do I find something I never had?
How do I heal from hiding in the background
While an addict ate my family up?
How do I complete that 5 year old boy
Hiding from the world inside me?
I let him out to see if he can stand
On his own legs
Atrophy can't stop him
He's climbing back through the years of apathy
And then you'll see
That he's on his way

Stay outside, cause inside is painful
Just come out of your own head instead
Stay outside, cause inside is shameful
Disdainful and blameful, playful and hateful

Stay outside, cause inside is painful
Just come out of your own head
Befriend the wind
While you watch yourself
Live finally instead



Credits
Writer(s): Alex Jimenez, Jeff Mckenzie
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