Hard to Smile

Ka-Flame speaks

I've been searching for a while
Past traumas, really hurt ya inner child
Conversing through these verses, I compile
Finding purpose, cause it hurt to even smile

Got my back against the wall (against the wall)
Standing tall, and I still won't fall (won't fall)
Ain't nobody, that I really can call
Hard to smile, while giving it my all (my all)
Got my back against the wall (yea)
Standing tall, and I still won't fall (won't fall)
Ain't nobody, that I really can call
Hard to smile, while giving it my all

Break it down for them lames, never felt one ounce of the pain
Rather see a nigga drown in the rain
Head down, walk around with the shame
Why our music ain't sounding the same?
Even though, they tryin to sound like the Flame
I had to change my whole sound in this game
29 years, still they bound to complain
Even though it's so profound what they claim
I'm still walking on that path of chosen
Long road, full of glass that is broken
You gone still feel the wrath of the omen
So raw, knowing half of it's potent
Got you smoking, and half of you choking
Know they're hooked, how they're laughing and joking
How they hide behind them masks, in the open
What good is the cash if you're broken, no hope is inside of ya flesh
Looking in ya eyes, know ya tired, get some rest
So many people thrive, and survive, through the test
So many people died, on that side, I confess
Witnessed drive bys, as they ride, through the jets
Open up fire, as they slide, with them techs
Supplying nothing but fire, I provide nothing less, even though

Got my back against the wall (against the wall)
Standing tall, and I still won't fall (won't fall)
Ain't nobody, that I really can call
Hard to smile, while giving it my all (my all)
Got my back against the wall (yea)
Standing tall, and I still won't fall (won't fall)
Ain't nobody, that I really can call
Hard to smile, while giving it my all

Tell me who do you believe in
Dealing with the drama every season
Backstabbing niggas on the rise
Muthafucka's love to come up with a reason
Sending shots, at these pussy ass demons
Make them bleed, cause I'm tired of them fiending
Begging for my soul, tell em no, then I'm leaving
Oh, you thinking I ain't suppose to get even
Dwelling in this hell, who the hell could you tell
Feeling like a jail, no bail to excel
Shit lookin frail, they'll putcha under spells
Told my momma, that I promise, to prevail
On this journey, slowly learning, when you fail
They be turning on ya, burning on ya trail
I been off the grid, I ain't turning on my cell
All they want is money, not concerning if you well
What type of money are ya earning for yourself?
When I ask, then its' never no response
Looking in my eyes can you tell me just once
Talking all loud, oh, now you wanna stunt
I got ya back, but you always wanna front
Saying every now and then, but you call me every month
Trying to stay ahead, I don't even have a bunch
This is food for thought, like I bought, them all lunch, for real

Got my back against the wall (against the wall)
Standing tall, and I still won't fall (won't fall)
Ain't nobody, that I really can call
Hard to smile, while giving it my all (my all)
Got my back against the wall (yea)
Standing tall, and I still won't fall (won't fall)
Ain't nobody, that I really can call
Hard to smile, while giving it my all

Jasmine Speaks