Ocean For My Sad Tears

Crying tears in the mirror, I see a failure that is breathing
People change quicker than the seasons
Leaving you unanswered, as you wondered why they left you for no reason
Telling permanent lies for you to never believe 'em

Ocean for my sad tears, ocean for my sad tears
Ocean for my sad tears, ocean for my sad tears
Ocean for my sad tears, ocean for my sad tears
I'm drowning, I'm drowning

Ocean for my sad tears building rapidly
Happiness is like an price that was sold separately from my life
I was depressed and felt so alone
No friends or family to pull me out the dark zone
Then I started dealing with depression and the pills made me feel
Like an overrated monster that was mentally ill
I started pushing people away from me, then I felt the sadness
Destroy me mentally, I needed help but all I had was a notebook
To write all of my feelings in
I started talking to the pages as if they were human beings
I was different but people saw me as a weird child
I was dealing with bipolar disorder and it took a while for me to function
At first, I thought that it was nothing that I couldn't handle
But it turned to something that I really couldn't handle
Especially when I was in the public
The folks around me started calling me a reject
I tried to pretend that I didn't hear that
But I did and I felt all the tears coming back and felt trapped
In my own misery and I would snap on the people that
Always had my back and never left like the rest
I was stressed out while drained from my brain syncing doubts
Tried to blank it out but I paused and started thinking about suicide
As the tears rolled down from my eyes
Like I was hypnotized to be inspired to die
I came to my senses but I still felt depressed
Like I was cursed to enjoy happiness for me to live with mistakes
And the fatal pain wouldn't give me a break
Was left dazed with insomnia that kept me wide awake
I was seconds away from staring death in the face
A clear message that satan wanted me to burn in his disgrace
My feelings haven't changed, now I'm more crazed
And to this day, I'm still trying to keep the faith but meanwhile

I'm crying tears in the mirror, I see a failure that is breathing
People change quicker than the seasons
Leaving you unanswered, as you wondered why they left you for no reason
Telling permanent lies for you to never believe 'em

Ocean for my sad tears, ocean for my sad tears
Ocean for my sad tears, ocean for my sad tears
Ocean for my sad tears, ocean for my sad tears
I'm drowning