Psalms 22

Crying out every night and getting no answer
Empty bottles make the only tune I dance to
Walking in the dark, too used to life without a lantern
Can't You hear my heartbeat getting faster

With these bulls and lions and dogs
My demons on me
They've been coming for my head
I've been lonely
Won't you save me now
Won't you save me now

Struggling with feeling like life isn't out to get me
I take the bad days personally
I take the worst with certainty
I tend to overthink every relationship in my life
I tend to fuck up every opportunity in sight
The more they're handed to me, I feel like I fumble the bag
I'm not a closer, it's a big deal in my head
And I've been tryna believe You have a plan
But damn, why do I suffer
My heart hits the canvas again
How do I trust You

And I feel sick for doubting Your timing
But I been winding up to suicide most nights
I don't wanna try and my patience is tired of being tired
I try to feel You in my mind, but I get distracted

By the bulls and lions and dogs
My demons on me
They've been coming for my head
I've been lonely
Won't you save me now
Won't you save me now

The water's drained out of me and my knees are at their lowest
My heart's deep in the 11th round
It's taking all these blows, I know it's a glutton for punishment
My mouth is dry and I'm waiting for the day of my judgment
But I've been told that You'll be saving the day
That You've been the only Way
I promise I've been trying to trust, I know it doesn't look it
A little preoccupied with survival
I've been running from the bullet

I've been keeping my head above water
I promise that I want You
You've been with me from the jump
And I need You more than I know
I need You more than I know
I'm tryna bow before you before I'm down to the dust
'Cause I need you more than I know
Oh I need you, I need you, but I get distracted

By the bulls and lions and dogs
My demons on me
They've been coming for my head
I've been lonely
Won't you save me now
Won't you save me now

And when I'm fighting myself, I find it the toughest battle
Finish the bottle because I don't wanna face the rabble in my mind
Busy building their tower of babel
I find it overwhelming, find no defense when I'm alone
I find it pretty telling
That I try to get out of my own company every night
Guess that's why everybody goes before they get it right
I'm the missing piece they need to drop before they get to take flight

I've been hearing all my life that You won't leave
But I just find it hard to believe
I find when I grieve every time another love leaves me
Whether a friend or more, I tend to pour out more of the liquor
Not even blood is thicker
I'm tryna trust you, but my flame is at a flicker
I couldn't even fathom how you would be bigger
How you would be the winner

Against these bulls and lions and dogs
My demons on me
They've been coming for my head
I've been lonely
Won't you save me now
Won't you save me now

These bulls and lions and dogs
My demons on me
They've been coming for my head
I've been lonely
Won't you save me now
Won't you save me now