Hopeless Romantic

Lookin at my love life like a blur
I'm conflicted
Between what I want and what I deserve
Passion of the flesh masking my hurt
Playin my role livin my curse
Use to be white knight
Feelin' absurd feeding the hurt
Seeking disturbed little girls
Let my narrative unfurl...

Attracted to the madness
Seeking rejection
feelings are tested
Confession:
Self destructive selfish motives in my selection
Add another one to my collection
Always had a weakness for blondes
Reason I'm writing this song
In my stoic heroic playing god
Hey baby where you from whats yo story whats yo sign
Give me yo number I'll give you mine
And we can dine on my
Short term sexual infatuation
Connection sacred
Addicted to state of penetration
So deep
Showing you things you aint neva seen
I enter yo cold womanly folds
Show me your soul
Caress away your demons if only for a moment
Seemingly seamless entanglement of our souls
Give me yo suffering
Give me your fear
I give you my tears

Blood sacrifice on the altar
Our embrace
Powerful lovemaking
Way I do it leave your legs shaking
Baby we taking our time
building up sexual tension
Intention dependence I wanna make you mine
So savage I mask the sadness
Contextual graphic charming bastard
A-typical predator conquest
Karmic cosmic incest
Emotionally unavailable target
The way I process sick but I love it
Only intention forming attachments
To impress on your memory complex
Dripping in sweat
Unforgettable sex
At the end she wept can you feel my pain baby
When I look in your eyes I see the light
Thinking maybe it could work
But I know its absurd
Cuz I...
Sabotage relations patiently waiting
Faking my statements of love
Addicted to the rush
Get my fix
I need it I need it
I never get enough...

My heart is a beast
Like bagging a tiger
Play with my heat
Spiritual fire in my veins
Show me yo pain
I penetrate yo essence with my presence
Rocking my world with lessons
Is this seduction or madness?
I question...
Thin line between addiction bliss and misery
Talkin to my women bout my destructive tendencies
And why I couldn't be a better man
She asked me what changed
I changed
Such a chilling recollection
Let me get my thoughts collected
It appears I gained perspective
On my life situation and direction
Sex became a weapon
Don't get it twisted
Reproductive warfare
Sadistic
On a mission
Spread seed and dominate these bitches
Such satin like porcelain
Soft seductive madness between her thighs
Only bad bitches need apply
I'm living life on my terms
Still I treat 'em good
I know they cant stay but hey!
I love 'em anyway