Black & White

I was the judge, holding a grudge
I wouldn't budge, at least not much
Don't begrudge, needed a nudge
I trudged through sludge to clutch my crutch
I was insane, making claims
I contained all my disdain
My restraint was a train
My brain is set to entertain
I wasn't loud, didn't like crowds
Not allowed to leave the ground
But my head was in the clouds
Thunder was the only sound
I was a narc, made my mark
I'm too reckless when I'm parked
Set a spark then disembark
Leaving you all in the dark

My memories are all black and white
Like an old film, the antonym of keeping my pain out of sight
Colors are meant for fairytales
I am in shock, I need a doc to cure a case of greyscale

I was uptight, rarely right
Out of sight, at least at night
My alibis were all airtight
Despite all that, I'm not alright
I was dead weight, a stalemate
I annotate all my best traits
Negotiated how I participated
Procrastinated before I abdicated
I was proven to be human
Resolute in my conclusion
I recommended revolution
That was my only contribution
I was so close to being chosen
But I froze and became broken
The commotion caused explosions
This will end in a demotion

My memories are all black and white
Like an old film, the antonym of keeping my pain out of sight
Colors are meant for fairytales
I am in shock, I need a doc to cure a case of greyscale

I miss my kaleidoscope
The colors always gave me hope
A technicolor telescope
My world's fading
I miss playing with Play-Doh
And Lincoln Logs and Dominoes
And putting on bad magic shows
My world's fading
I even miss Monopoly
Despite all the monotony
It sounds so simple, honestly
My world's fading
I miss summer tranquility
And financial stability
And all that flexibility
My world's fading

My memories are all black and white
Like an old film, the antonym of keeping my pain out of sight
Colors are meant for fairytales
I am in shock, I need a doc to cure a case of greyscale