April Angel (Gabriel)

Dear April Angel
Did it hurt you when you rose from hell
And I hope you know I'm fine, can't you tell
Well, it's been a lie I keep telling myself

You know it's hard when we are
More than friends, but less than lovers
And you know this had to end
When you said I'll find someone better

You became the star of my favorite songs
From the playlists for us two
And now I can't listen to Cornelia Street
Without thinking of you

Nobody loved me the way you did
How could you hurt an older kid
You warned me not to fall too deep
But I still see you in dreams when I sleep

I sent you a thousand paragraphs
Explaining why you should've loved me
But you said you'd love yourself
So I had to set you free

And I know it's hard
When you're in love
But you can't be together

Commitment is hard
When all your life
You were God's strongest soldier

So make the mistakes
Let's take a break
We'll rewrite our love story later

But if we're both gone
Too far to come back
Just know that I never regretted you

Dear Gabriel
You lost me
You're now a greatest memory
A boy who made me feel like I've never
Ever loved anyone before
A thousand moments I took for granted
Cus I thought there'd be a thousand more
And now I lost the one thing I've wanted
Cus I had no choice but to fall through
The rabbit hole I can't escape
And now I'm losing my only love
And when you find yourself
You know where to find me
And if you found yourself
I'm still where you left me

Remember when you kissed me
Behind the mall
And all you said was
"It didn't mean anything at all"

I hate that you're my first date
And I only loved you too late
Cus all of the boys you've loved before
Has ruined everything inside you

I hope you know you saw parts of me
That I don't let anyone see
I hope it's engraved in your mind
Cus you know that I'm hard to find

You told me not to mind our past
You told me not to move too fast
But we broke our promises
Especially the one that you'll love me forever

And I know it's hard
When you're in love
But you can't be together
Commitment is hard

When all your life
You were God's strongest soldier
So make the mistakes
Let's take a break

We'll rewrite our love story later
But if we're both gone
Too far to come back
Just know that I never regretted you

Dear Gabriel
You lost me
You're now a greatest memory
A boy who made me feel like I've never
Ever loved anyone before
A thousand moments I took for granted
Cus I thought there'd be a thousand more
And now I lost the one thing I've wanted
Cus I had no choice but to fall through
The rabbit hole I can't escape
And now I'm losing my only love
And when you find yourself
You know where to find me
And if you found yourself
I'm still where you left me

Whatever happened to us
Happened a thousand times before
I just hoped that this would be better
But now it can't anymore

You swindled me with kisses
And false promises of a love that never dies
But I should've known better
That any of this will be gone in the blink of my eyes

So trust me I'm fine, I've made up my mind
I'll let you stay in my memories
I'm not gonna find someone better than you
But I'll find someone better for me

And trust me it's hard
When you're in love
But you won't choose each other

Commitment is hard
When all your life
You were God's strongest soldier

So learn from mistakes
Heal the heartaches
You can write your love story later

If it's not with me
I'll be happy for you
If it's not with me
I'll be happy for you

Dear Gabriel
You lost me
You're now a greatest memory
A boy who made me feel like I've never
Ever loved anyone before
A thousand moments I took for granted
Cus I thought there'd be a thousand more
And now I lost the one thing I've wanted
Cus I had no choice but to fall through
The rabbit hole I can't escape
And now I'm losing my only love
And when you find yourself
I hope you'll be happy
And if you found yourself
I'll be finally happy

I'm not gonna find someone better than you
But I'll find someone better for me
So when you find yourself
I hope you'll be happy

I'm not gonna find someone better than you
But I'll find someone better for me
So when you find yourself
I hope you'll be happy

And when I find myself
I hope I am happy