Gracie Abrams on Free Now

This isn't what you want, it's only how you feel
You openly admit you're far away from healing
And I hate to pull the plug but I think I get your deal
I finally know better than to wait for you back here

And I hope you know I don't think
You're a bad guy, that you're damaged
Took you two months, only two to raise the bar
You're the saddest, but a good kid
Almost loved you, but I didn't
I could laugh now, how we tried to play those parts

I know that you're removed, I can feel it when we talk
You start to let me in but then you shut it off
And it's half of you that hurts sometimes, the half that I don't get
I swear that I'm not mad at you, but I can't share your bed now

And I can't imagine when you go home
Does she follow like an echo?
Like your shadow, you can try but you can't run
From the truth of what you both made
That you blew up on a Tuesday
How does pain taste when it melts into your tongue?

It's a pain that I caught you at a bad time
It's a shame that I memorized your outline
You were straight up with me, you were so kind
But I knew what you knew, honey, great minds
It was harsh 'cause I lost what I wanted
I was brave when I kissed you in London
We're collateral here, man, we got hit
Hope you find somewhere safe for your baggage
Every page that I wrote, you were on it
Feel you deep in my bones, you're the current
And I showed no restraint, it was something
I was scared until you made me love it

If you find yourself out, if there is a right time
Chances are I'll be here, we could share a lifeline
If you feel like fallin', catch me on the way down
Never been less empty, all I feel is free now
If you find yourself out, if there is a right time
Chances are I'll be here, we could share a lifeline
If you feel like fallin', catch me on the way down
Never been less empty, all I feel is free now