Goodbye (I'll see you again)

I step outside just to feel alive and walk towards the car
My Keys are in the ignition
But the engine just won't start(oh no)
I guess it's okay
I can't do this today

I've got one foot on the brake and one on the gas
I'm going nowhere but still I crash
The mind isn't it funny? How one day you'll feel so strong
Then the next you're on your knees crying screaming wishing you were gone
How do I move on?

I put this off because I can't cope
No words express the internal sorrow
To let you go is to dismember me
But to hold on is to forever be

Paralyzed
In your web of lies
You're so concerned with the facade you uphold
How is it you can be so bold?
But you can't acknowledge you too were wrong
now you've done it and now I'm gone

How can I do this on my own?
I ask myself until I realize I was always all alone
how many times can I ask myself
To keep allowing you to put me through this Hell?
I can't anymore

Goodbye my dear old friend
Maybe one day when I'm older
We'll revisit this again
But for now I'll shut this down
Come up for air before I drown
Because I'm drowning

My heart is fractured
Like broken bits of matter
Floating through an empty vessel
Carrying this weight for the both of us has been much too stressful
It was never my burden to bear
My heart my mind and my soul forever impaired

There are no clouds in the sky
But emotions flood my mind
Like a downpour of pain
Memories rush by I'm sure I had the time of my life
But right now tears are falling like the rain

Goodbye my dear old friend
Maybe one day when I'm older
We'll revisit this again
But for now I'll shut this down
Come up for air before I drown
Because I'm drowning and I can't do that to myself

Oh one day I'll see you in myself
Oh and one day I will know you all too well
But underneath the pain
Your Demons can't hide
They turn away
They have no home in my mind

Maybe one day you will hold more than this bitterness inside
I hope one day these monsters flee residing in your mind
But I can't wait around to see
The good you may or may never be
As much as it hurts me

I remember nights when silence screamed so loudly
When I held onto dreams that weren't what they seemed
It tore me down
It made me Numb
It made me realize what I could become
I wandered down a lonely road
Almost gave up and went back home
But realized the emptiness in those four walls was never a home meant for me at all

Goodbye my dear old friend
Maybe one day when I'm older
We'll revisit this again
But for now I'll shut this down
Come up for air before I drown
I can't stay
This isn't safe
Your reality and mine are not the same so maybe one day
I'll see you again