E. infektion

You were just a boy
Who held the door open
Literally and figuratively

It was just a crack
Never more of that
I wondered, "Maybe something is wrong with me?"

All my crushes have the common name
Every time I hope that they're not the same
They blink at every girl in the room
Turns out it was never special to me

How can he make me feel this worthless
Yet I still seek for his attention?
Thought an eye contact could lead to love
But it never brought an intimate connection

Didn't I take too much therapy?
Childhood traumas should've been remedied
I can't help but still judge myself
Pursuing a one-sided fantasy

Eeee eeeeee
Uuuu uuuu uuuuuu

Asked on a coffee date
Tried to take a step
Not to keep it only in my dreams

An hour and a half
Excused himself and left
Thought it's 'cause I was boring as hell

All my life I questioned my thoughts
While girls cried over some lost boys
I was introspective, I focused on myself
Unlike now, I'm losing my self-worth

How can someone make me so hopeless
Yet I still seek for their attention?
Thought an eye contact could lead to love
But all it brought's Emotional inFEKtion

Didn't I take too much therapy?
Attachment issues stay as my inner melody
I can't help but still judge myself
Pursuing a torturous ecstasy

I thought I had learned my lesson
But I can't internalize for some reason
Still keep falling for crumbs of gestures

Shouldn't have I lived through this long ago?
It's such a high school issue
Still, I feel like a teenager
Guess my heart should break some more
I still resist to peaceful



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Writer(s): Zeynep Kızmaz
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