Let You Lose Me

Almost three months wasted
Giving my heart to you
If I could rewind back to July
I would wish I never met you

Now fast forward in time
Once again, I'm back with my sunshine
Though you're another one that had hurt
You felt like the very first

Knowing that I could never ever go back
Because I'm not making mistakes, like I did in the past
If you think that we could have an alternate end
Did you lie like you did when your parents forced our end?

My wasted tears could be broken stones
Promise me, that shit was hard to throw
But I won't be crying anymore
Like all of those who have mocked me for my past

And I say I don't care anymore
But that's because I see what my heart was worth
And most people think my heart is free
But I know this time I'll let you lose me

You still have that present that I gave you
And you know I really cared for you too
And I know if I wasn't me
I wouldn't treat me this shitty

And I know that it'll come eventually
But all I see are people away from me
When I see them all in a circle
It brings me back again, my heart's not fertile

Countless times I've been pushed to the back
But I didn't open my eyes, it was something I lacked
But I can now see through the bullshit
You could never ever make me believe you were worth it

When you said I fell from the sky
I'm not your angel, and I sure don't feel like it now
But I can be the phoenix, fly over land
And know in my heart, that I can walk on my own again

You still have that look when you see me
Looking at me at the party
You fucking wish you had me
Know that you're not it, sorry

Seeing you in this state's shocking
Never had seen one depressing
But I've been done a long time ago

Waiting for the pain to end
And I know the universe has things to send
You were the last thing that could break me down
And I'm the only one who saw right through you

My wasted tears could be broken stones
Promise me, that shit was hard to throw
But I won't be crying anymore
Like all of those who have mocked me for my past

And I know I'll never come back
You'll see me there, but it's wiped, it's all black
And I know that in my heart
I have shown that you have lost me
And I'm proud