monolouging 2 my inner child (interlude)

["Our egos personalize it and we consider ourselves special cases
'Yes'
But we're really not y'know?
We're- we are part of the whole and everything in the whole transforms all the time
Changes form, transfigures"]

Hello how is everyone doing tonight?
Okay hold up
Does this thing work?
Cool cool alright

I find that isolation's all I really ever feared
This life's a trip but all my life a nigga never steered
A passenger to chaos younger me would sit and stare
Them silent panics kept me safe when crashing out was coming near

The words "I love you" never felt sincere
Feel like a burden after high school why the fuck it feel like no one cares
I never listened they would talk and I would never hear
But now the world is walking and I'm stuck with climbing up these stairs

And no one's ever there
Don't need reminders that I'm lost I've been well aware
I been so bent on going up I couldn't see
The whole time I was climbing
Life been moving on
I ain't get anywhere

Been stuck between pursuing comfort fitting in with peers
Then seeing all my niggas blow up while I'm switching gears
I don't get jealous but quick to compare
I beat myself up a lot
I know that that shit isn't fair

And to my love
I hope you never leave
Saw me at my lowest and you gave the boy serenity
Your voice like angel when you talk it feels like heaven sings
Thank you for being part of all these silly dreams

Clouds taught me sometimes hell and peace
Are only but a step apart control is what you need releasing
You came around when I thought lowly of myself
After my big heartbreak
Thinking that she's the reason

I used to blame Aaliyah
For all my self hate and deprecation
I figured all my love was lost within our separation
Turned workaholic I thought maybe she'd come back
If I got richer when she left and get attracted to my destination

Then she apologized
And that shit left me with a revelation
In a sense I'm hella patient now I see the good in everyone
And that's on meditation
(I think it help me with my elevation)

I find that isolation's all I really ever feared
This life a trip but all my life a nigga never steered
A passenger to chaos younger me would sit and stare
Them silent panics kept me safe when crashing out was coming near

The words "I love you" never felt sincere
Feel like a burden after high school why the fuck it feel like no one cares
I never listened they would talk and I would never hear
But now the world is walking and I'm stuck with climbing up these stairs

["Your a special case
'It's cause I'm your mama'
No
No this
I know this transfigure-
I know I know I know
But c'mon there's no way to stop the heartbreak
How do you s-
What do you do about that?
'You cry
You cry'



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Writer(s): Moses Thomas
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