Amberwood

Haven't had a second to breathe In months
Just ignored my dad and I ain't feel bad
Your hands locked in mine
San Francisco for a while
Leaves hang off of the stone wall
We lay in bed with our coats on
The camp fire in our lungs
But the cold air keeping us both calm
CVS running out of masks
A twilight haze raining powder black
Stare at your reflection through the glass
You give me the face you have when you're in love
And I'm missing the moment while wondering
If I'll remember it or if anybody does

I was 20 on the 110 out
There's no turning back now
2017, all alone on new years eve
Throwing up on myself
Head spinning like wheels turning
Throat burning but I'm feeling myself
My eyes rolling, euphoria
Lose myself in this warehouse crowd
And I'm like 22 now
I feel better when in doubt
I'm off the grid for awhile
I been on tour for awhile
I made like two hundred thousand
I'm in a foreign city for the month
I got a Visa for the re-up
Me and her barely holding on

But thats what I do
Got so much to lose
Or I'm riding around

Back at Amberwood
Back at Amberwood
Back at Amberwood

Can't believe we made it here
All the way from a distant daydream
Vinyls hanging over my teenage bedsheets

I used to wake up and dream of Coachella
Knew I was different, no one would listen
Sold my first mixtape for 5 dollars
I made like 5 dollars off of them bitches
Perform at crown roots, ten in attendance
South Pasadena, they'd treat all my records like dead ends
Rumors were spreading, started pretending
I was one of them, almost stopped making music

Kids from back then, hitting me up now
They say "what's up now? I hope you've been good
I heard your album, it got me through college
Surprised you're the one that made it to Hollywood."

But you're the reason that I'm fucking depressed
You're the reason that this hole in my chest
A void I can not fill, but help me make checks
I helped you heal; how can I rest?

Came a long way from not working with BH
Driving to South LA when they would need me
Phone had no data, I'd call on the freeway
Mom told me exit on Fig and I'd be there

Ian gave me a platform and I used it
No one believed, had to go out and prove it
Now I've been touring, millions listen
And I won't stop 'till I got more

Bitch Imma floor it, bitch they adore me
Haven't got a Tesla but I can afford it
You can't ignore it
How many late nights in this life I stayed up recording?

On a one way flight to Kauai to meet Rick
Did an hour show with Zane Lowe on a whim
Opened for Matty to like 6,000 kids
They getting tattoos of all these logos I did man

And if you told me that when I was 17
I'd say your ass was high
Almost killed myself when I was 18
Wish I could tell him It's gon' be alright

And Its times I wish I wasn't in this chair
And that's something that I wish I didn't feel
Want to bleed out of my heart but I could fail
On the world stage this is fame and this is real

But do they notice when you're broken?
Do they feel it when your hope has been stolen?
By uniforms, zero emotions
Atlas with the world up on his shoulders
Try to stay independent, stress enormous
Been selling dreams, LLC baby we own it
But still that lil' boy banging OF on Mission
Nothing has changed even if everything's different

Screaming
"I want you how i want you
In this way of what i want"

Spent my whole life walking uphill
Should be easier, It's not

Know my dad and mom are proud of me
But I wish right from the start

If I could I'd fall apart
But I'm too scared of the dark