Calculated Resurrection

Okay, alright
I suppose, I suppose, it's time, yup
Time to start documenting this
I don't know, for posterity or?
Yeah, yeah for posterity of course
About what I'm about to do
They'll want to know, won't they?

They'll, they'll need to know
To understand how it all began and, and why I, changed

But they won't understand
No, no, no they never did

But that's not for me to worry about, is it?
No, no, no

They say every villain has an origin story
A moment when, I don't know, everything shifts
When the world pushes just a little too far

And for me it, it wasn't just a moment
No, nope, no, God no it was, it was a lifetime

A lifetime of being pushed, of being cast aside
Of trying, so hard to fit into a world that, that never wanted me

A lifetime of bending over backwards just to be noticed
To, to, I don't know, to be accepted?

But, that acceptance never came
No matter how hard I, I tried

I was always the outcast, the, the, always the one on the fringes
Barely noticed until, until I 'd make a mistake

And, and then, then I was their villain, the one they could mock and scorn

But, but when I played the game the way they expected
I became their darling, for a moment

But it was never enough

I never, truly, belonged

The harder I tried, the more they found reasons to reject me

They thought I would break under their pressure
That I would crumble into, their nothing

But instead something within me began to change

Slowly, slowly at first, a shift
A dark shift, in the shadows of my mind

My anger grew, yes, yeah but, but it was more than that
It was a revelation

No, no that's not it, no
No, not a revelation
A realization
That they didn't deserve the person I had tried so hard to become

No, no, they deserved something far worse

Until one day, one day, something inside me, snapped

No, no, no, no

Popped

Yeah, yes, yes, popped like a balloon stretched too thin

There was no warning, no gradual build-up, just a sudden
Glorious release
Pop

And a rush of clarity as the pressure vanished
No more, no more trying to fit into their mold
No more containment
No more playing by their rules

My, my suppressed pain transformed into something
Something darker
Something they could have never
Never have anticipated

They wanted a monster in their nightmares?
And I gave them exactly, exactly that

I didn't just accept the role they forced on me
I uh, I evolved into something beyond
Beyond their worst fears

I became, what they could never control