destroy

I couldn't help but walk away in tears
Felt like everything had come to an end
All you said was ok
And it made my mind shut down
Cold as death I walked away and felt my state descend

I slammed my head into my wall until I felt dumb
I never knew you drowned in tears until our words spilt out
I've never felt so torn apart over something we talked about
Dug myself a bigger hole and fell to my death
And I can't fuck and I can't sleep without the lightning overhead

We talked again and I felt sick of hearing myself
I don't- don't
I don't know why this even matters she can hold her breath all by herself
Do I seem like the kind of freak who wants to take control
I don't want to abandon reason and fall back into this hole
If I did what is the point of trying to crawl out
Every time this fucking happens I write another album
And I end them with the lightest note to remind myself why I should be happy
But I'm still rotting I'm still rotting but for what for what reason after all

(Destroy destroy destroy destroy destroy destroy destroy destroy)

A mason jar of ashes
A call from the landline
Matte gunmetal alloy
In my hands, I remember how it felt
Raindrops dropping on my head
Rosemary grows in my prison cell
What's the ultimate endpoint
If I only destroy myself

Sirens weeping your name
Paint your sorrows with flames
Destroy your shame
Destroy your shame
Destroy your shame
Destroy your shame
Destroy your shame
Destroy your shame
Destroy your shame