An Apology

I asked you if we would see each other again
You said it's up to you
You were never any good at making decisions

And I keep wondering if I asked too much
But I only asked for wanting
I asked you to want to be there for me
To meet the basic needs

My bleeding heart and your falling short
You started retreating
Maybe two years from now
We'll figure it out
All the lies we were eating

Remember when you told me you were falling in love again with me
Does that mean you fell out, and how are you sure now
That we're past our healing

I keep thinking about how you said there were others
You loved and couldn't be with
You always said the worst things at the worst times
But I think I know just what you meant with that hurtful sentiment
'Cause you know that I loved others too before I met you
But it's time you learned the difference between loss and commitment
Between honesty and inflicting pain

There was always an apology
I keep waiting for the apology
It was sometimes delayed, but you came to your senses
And the good times, they took all of me
And the bad times, you would call me
And at the end of the day, you always had all of me

And I clung so hard to you
'Cause I knew what you would do
If I loosened up my grip
I knew that you would slip
800 days spent together
Controlled everything but the weather
You holding on to your rope so tightly
I backed you up until you surrendered

There was always an apology
I keep waiting for the apology
It was sometimes delayed
But you came to your senses
And the good times, they took all of me
And the bad times, you would call me
And at the end of the day, you always had all of me
And it's done now, and I'm not ok
Filled its purpose, I miss you every day
Ran its course, I understand, but can we fix it