I'm Sorry

The crisp air on my skin makes me feel so clean
When I run outside there's a light in your room
And I'll never admit how I came so far
Just looking

A red tie in my hair all rosy eyed
You just knew me
The six seconds of laughter between every line
Always threw me

And the leaves fall
Down
And the world is
Silent
And I want to hide myself

I'm sorry I never told you
"This is it, this is what I want"
And I'm sorry you'll never know

I was just afraid
If I told you so
You would let me go

Eight hours more till the evening starts
You decide if it rains we should stay in
Your stupid shirts line the hallways out to dry
I forgot how you live when I can't win

And the rain falls down
And you're moving closer
And I want to find
Myself

I'm sorry I never told you
"This is it, this is what I want"
And I'm sorry you'll never know
I was just afraid, if I told you so, you would let me go
You would let me go
And I can't
But I wish
That you would look inside me till it burns and I feel
Everything
And I want
And I'd die to really know the reason why
I push you away

I push you away

The gravel touches my feet I'm composed again
It's much safer
Walking home in the dark just another fall
Like before

And my mind shuts down
As I turn the corner
And there's not a sound
Till I reach my room

I'm sorry
I never told you
"This is it, this is what I want"
And I'm sorry you'll never know

I was just afraid

If I told you so

You would let me go