Constant Collapse

There's nothing here for me
But I am here for you so I will never leave
And I'm starting to believe every time you said you love me
You were just talking in your sleep

And I said I would die for you
But that was before I knew that is all you wanted me to do
And time and time again I can tell you I hate you
But that won't ever make it true

'Cause even during the good times
When you kissed me I didn't want to open my eyes
'Cause I didn't want to realize how hollow our love was
But now that it's over, I'm still here, and all I want to know was love

And I only talk about you in the past tense
'Cause through all of this mess it's the only thing that makes sense
And all I do these days is want but I've settled for wishful thinking
And neglecting, and justifying my emptiness

Because it's easier to see what you have when you can see what your neighbor lacks
I would give an arm and a leg just to have my arm and leg back
And I worked so hard to help you find truth, just to slowly learn that your silence says
Just as much about your character as your words do

We gave our love away

I always thought that I would be okay
I always thought that I would be okay
I always thought that I would be okay
I never thought, I never thought I would be okay

Through this silent note, what constitutes the truth
'Cause I can tell myself
Time and time again
That I'm not making sense of this

And that cross around your neck was more hollow than your head
But I still just wanted to follow you to bed

I never listened to my own voice
Maybe some of us embrace death
But some of us don't have a choice
And maybe I'm both because I didn't choose this

But that doesn't mean I'm going to change
'Cause I never do, and you never did
And it scared me away

And that's why she still cuts your skin for you
And that's why that she's still in you
And her name is acceptance
And she used to kill me, and now she's killing you

And through all this stress
And carried-out disastrous distress
I've learned that I really don't like you
But I forgive you because I love you

I love you