Against the Grain (feat. Rachel Castillo)

They all said that I had to move so I could blow up
I was like I'm gonna show you wrong like so what
It's not about where you lay your head as long
As where you lay your head
Homie you ain't laying dead
Shit, I feel as if I got a chip up on my shoulder
And now it's getting obvious the more I'm getting older
I'm racing father time and mother natures getting bolder
And every morning waking up, I feel like I'm a soldier
I'm obligated to show em I'm underrated, I'm hated and fucking hate it
I'm sober but getting faded, by this chick I fucking dated
I medicated to deal with it
Might not be the best but I swear to God that I'm real with it
Did you catch what I said yet I'm still with it
I'm just trying to make a fucking living so I'm still spitting
I ain't stop for nothing until I'm legendary
Mighta left the game for a minute but dawg we're still married

In this life of joy and pain, I choose to fight against the grain
So if I die before I wake, let my music change the game
Change the game

One of the illest in my region, it's a full time job
One of the realist so they feel this, each and every song
I'm on top of my game playing pictionary
Depict a picture in every lyric, a visionary
Instead of jumping off a cliff I'm tryna fill the gap
I gotta niche to educate, so grab your pen and pad
It's tough to do like I've been playing with a rubik's cube
Critics are the colors and pattern is the ridicule
Hella anxious like I'm standing on some pins and needles
Ready for whatever but I'm stuck between some good and evil
I'm hella lost but hella found at the same time
Imagine winning a battle of wits in the same mind
I wear my heart on my sleeve, but swear I'm losing my shirt
I've been trying to believe that I've been making this work
Maybe out of my league but you ain't taking my words
Cause if I said it I meant it, that's the way I work

In this life of joy and pain, I choose to fight against the grain
So if I die before I wake, let my music change the game
Change the game

I spit realist, dam right they fucking feel this
I'm a force to be reckoned with but really I'm just chilling
I spit it from the heart but somehow labeled a villain
When really I'm no different from the feelings that there feeling
So angry, lost and explosive
The tone that's in my voice is a powerful emotion
I just want to show the world that I can fucking fly
Open up my wings when I fall, and I won't die
A competition where I battle myself
It's like a mirrored recognition where I sat in my cell
Now I'm fueled by the lessons that'll broaden my wealth
Cause if I'm giving up too early then I've already fell
And I ain't quitting for nothing you mother fuckers are tripping
I'm on an honorable mission to help the hopeless and listen
I got a higher position like it's my only existence
I'm on top of the world, do what it takes to be ambitious

In this life of joy and pain, I choose to fight against the grain
So if I die before I wake, let my music change the game
Change the game