So It Ends

And so it begins who would have ever thought that this day was bright/
I got a deal, writing rhymes its a stage for fright/
mother speaking wisdom to my ears giving great advise/
at times I write only just to see my status liked/
(pride) with so much folly up in my trolley, can God use someone like me/
and I keep asking the same question, see my brow stay sweating/
but the Spirit give rest indeed/its not about you young S He says/
I decrease He increase in my sentences/
I need Jesus deep thesis that is heaven sent/
please believe it is Him that I'm resting in/lean since I get my strength/
from the Bread of Life so I feast on/
and drink water from His well should I keep going/ cease sipping cease spitting I'm in deep thought/
this ordeal made me feel I should cease flowing/
can you see the fears up in my eyes hommie/
i still muse upon the words that Shai told me/
about the woman I care for time showed me/
awaken love before time and you sigh only/
but I only rise up I'm my mind rest in God's great love/memorise what has been tried and tested/
I'm the reason my impressions were depressive/
but I am never the one 2 take in anti-depressants/
but simply suppress it/what you people impressed with/
me, I am nothing but see the grandest message/
that I speak is/
and I aint coming with here eloquence/
but hoping that a true state taking precedence/are you getting this/
I share my burdens on this verse and my hurt Lord God take residence/
in the inner most parts of my being/
so they when they see me they see you but it seems/
many men won't hear it don't care bout what the word say/
see I don't rhyme to have wowed by the wordplay/
no, this is more than song/
I am weak He is strong/
I am me He is God/
yeah, a mortal speaking about the immortal/
no portal 2 the Father just Christ I mean the Way/
and Trusay we talk about what we got too/
but some days I lay awake in my bed coz I be afraid/
stale water do you see the state/
smell the aroma reading Romans in my secret place/
the sacrifice of atonement is what He became/
that's why GP and Serene are always screaming grace/
not perfect on surface does it seem we great/
many think that we claim to be/
but Christ like is only what we aim to be/
don't care if we don't swing in them major league/
because, we wanna live a life as bondservant/
live amongst many, but were living for 1 Person/
and I'm certain that His words are eternal/
so who could I turn to, but the Ruler whose rods working/
the Shepherd of the sheep but the scapegoat/
echo this God saves souls/
ima say so really till my last breath/
pray I am found busy for His kingdom in my last step/
can't half step, in the past tense I did/
was brought out of the pit, God showed I'm His/
its still surreal that this deal sits on a table/
even if the rain cains, God's more than able to do it/
so even if I stare at gloom/
I trust in Jesus to steer me through/
yeah I'm living with the end in view/
so it begins but its ending soon/