Fear and Trembling

There's a moosehead hanging from a wall at a bar
At a nondescript part of the street
There's a long-haired boy making eyes at a john
By the lamplights hung from the beams

We're at the stumbling phase of the midnight waltz
At a bookend to the weirdest of weeks
Me and Arnold walk, pretty hammered and crying
"Hey, I'll miss you, man, when you leave"
Yeah, I'll miss you when you leave

'Cause there are feelings that are strong
And there are ones that are mixed
At the dawn of my young life's eclipse
I was a boy once, now, I'm a kind-of-adult
Catching up on the cool shit I missed

'Cause we were raised where the pastors
They danced in the aisles
With a moshpit up front full of youths
So if faith is to lose the mind to win God
Then I guess I got nothing to prove
I guess I got nothing to prove

I was waiting on the future
But the future only came
In the form of greying matter
In my only father's brain
I'm not afraid of acquiescing
To the trials of his old age
But of missing all the humanness
He'll show when I'm away

And the part of me unspoken
And the part that's self assured
Are belligerents divergent
In a psychic civil war
But I'm a crier and a fighter
Not a faker and a fraud
So if losing my religion
Is the way to finding God

Then light it up
The shadow's in my blood
"Oh, a weary heart", they say
"It shatters it all"
So light it up
It's bound to be much worse
When you get, get, get, get back to the summer
If you get, get, get, get back to the summer at all

There's an omen now of frailty
Hanging heavy from my face
A kind of existential loneliness
That struts and frets a stage
And disappears unsatiated by
The rhythms of the day
Still illuminating nothing
But the love I turn away

And I still care about the present
And the weight of circumstance
To the muckraking of cowards
And a symphony of sass
While I have questions of mortality
The clear and present vast
They just yell the word pretentious
With no clarity or class

So light 'em up
Their shadows in my blood
"Oh, a weary heart", they say
"It shatters it all"
So line 'em up
It's bound to be much worse
Oh, when you get, get, get, get back to the summer
If you get, get, get, get back to the summer
When you get, get back to the summer
If you get, get, get, get back to the summer at all

One time

I feel everything
Yeah, I feel it all
And I feel it in my bones and in my fucking skull
I feel everything
Yeah, I feel it all
And I never look back
Oh, and I feel it in my heart attack

And I feel it all
I feel everything
And I know it's weird
And I fought the fear and trembling
'Cause I feel it all
I feel everything
And I never looked back
This fear, this fear is trembling

And I waited on forever
But forever never came
Just a latent sense of loyalty
To the things I love in vain
And now I'm terrified of loving
'Cause I'm terrified of pain
And of missing out on human things
By cowering away

So light 'em up
Those shadows in my blood
"Oh, a weary heart", they say
"It shatters it all"
So light 'em up
It's bound to be much worse
Oh, when you get, get, get, get back to the summer
If you get, get, get, get back to the summer
When you get, get back to the summer
If you get, get, get, get back to the summer at all