Do Not Let Your Spirit Wane

So I have this dream, it comes like twice in a week
It's been so for years and years on repeat
And since then I've not had a full night of sleep
'Cause it plays out the same way

I live with this girl and our kid
I'm as happy as a pig rolled in shit
It's postcard, I'm settled, a pirate no more
A gypsy at most with no mortgage

It's boring but in the most exquisite of ways
No carcinogenic and humdrum malaise
And it's strange, all the things that I've run from
Are the things that completeness could come from

So anyways, we're happy and impossibly so
It's earth and it's heaven all simpatico
Floorboards laid out and the walls painted white
My dream self and I like the same things

They're all set to leave and I kiss them goodbye
They go and get groceries or something and I
Am drinking alone in the basement
And pray I'm not hallucinating

Do not let this thing you got go to waste
Do not let your heart be dismayed
It's here by some random disclosure of grace
From some vascular, great thing

Let your life grow strong and sweet to the taste
'Cause the odds are completely insane
Do not let your spirit wane
Do not let your spirit wane

In love I am careful-to-mostly-reserved
And this dream is a life I don't think I deserve
My girl and our kid are impossibly bright
And I am just drunk in our basement

See a car, see my girl and look at our kid
Approaching a corner with rain and a skid
Then a phone call to me from the ICU ward
"Sir, I'm so sorry to say this"

I'm walking alone through the hospital door
ID their bodies, collapse to the floor
Numb and relentlessly broken
Then I wake up the very next moment

Do not let this thing you got go to waste
Do not let your heart be dismayed
It's here by some random disclosure of grace
From some vascular, great thing

Do not let this thing you got go to waste
The pain and the beauty, so strange
Do not let your spirit wane
Do not let your spirit wane

Cut me out
Take me home, my
Hands are tired
My legs are broke
And the ruptured chrome
Plus the deep unknown
Turn my insides out
And my head face down

Cut me out
Take me home, my
Hands are tired
My legs are broke
And the ruptured chrome
Plus the deep unknown
Turn my insides out
And my head face down

Do not let this thing you got go to waste
Do not let your heart be dismayed
It's here by some random disclosure of grace
From some vascular, great thing

Get the fuck out of your head if it says
"Stay cold and be deathly afraid"
Do not let your spirit wane
Do not let your spirit wane