One Blink

One
One year, two year, three
I need to forget you so I can feel free
Free of the sadness, free from this void
Free from emotions I try to avoid
It's easier to run and forget about the fun
But instead I'm haunted by a tape inside my mind
Airing the same constant reruns
Because if I learn to forget those memories inside my head
I wouldn't have o go on wishing that you weren't dead
The words that you said, are the fabric and thread
To this life you helped to display, it's you who helped imbed
Yeah
I fight a war inside my brain
And I can't stay inside my lane
Because I'm tossing with these feelings of holding on or forget
Try to cancel out the noise with my bible and some games
But somehow I'm still upset
The television set only plays reruns of your silhouette drawing my regret

Gone in the blink of an eye

Scared, frightened and shocked
When your heart went into shock, I wanted to walk
Depart from my feelings, shut the door, throw away the key to the lock
Put together a combination lock, that you could never unlock
Try once, try twice, like 64,000 only 63,998 combinations to go
Stumbling block, a lot more like a cinder block
Dragging my emotions to the bottom of an ocean
Try, but you can't knock down the door
So you politely knock, mock and flock
Thank you for investing in my sadness ever growing in stock

One year, pick the lock
Feelings harbor at bay, surfaced from a year's worth of brewing
Reminder of these pieces I failed re-glueing
Chewing at the thoughts that are stewing
When I look into a skewed face in a casket at your viewing
Queuing these thoughts of all the things I wish that I could be redoing
It's the same today, same cold grim array
Renewing and reviewing all these thoughts I thought I tossed
That rose up in my subconscious silently subduing
Try to lock the door, but I find I come short to all that I am pursuing
I would love to stay and talk, but I honestly feel like I am just spewing

Gone
You're gone
Gone
You're gone
Gone (Gone)
You're gone (in the blink of an eye)
Gone
You're gone (in the blink of an eye)
Gone (Gone)
You're gone (in the blink of an eye)
Gone
You're gone (in the blink of an eye)

I wanna let go, but I want to show you respect
Tell you how much you meant to me, maybe resurrect so we can reconnect
Wish I could tell you that I could never reject, never select A better man
You had a positive affect, peculiar effect, something I could never eject
You became a man that I respect, and eventually would reflect
I pray to God I never neglect these fond thoughts I hold of you
I eagerly await till I can once again start to reconnect with you