Deadbeat

I take step back
I'm on the outside
Looking in

I'm staring into a mirror asking
"What lies within?"
Cold sweat and I can't think straight
Insomnia fueled by the presence of the very things I hate

Whispers echo on the walls of my mind
I'm twisting and turning
My chest is aching and burning

Memories of a man with purpose
Proving who I am to be nothing
Just worthless
Here I am

Always running from the things that you tell me
Haunted by the thought of everything that I should be
Whispers repeating
I wish I was dreaming
But how am I supposed to save me from myself
When everything that I hate is in myself?

"Worthless!"

I've fallen short of all the things that I've reached for
Begging and pleading you don't ask for more
I'm not enough
It's getting tough
I'm just a mess-up
I setup myself for failure
Every time

Keep in mind
I've lost myself
Put on a shelf collecting dust
I've seen the dust turn to rust

What do you see when you look at me?
Tell me what you see when you look through me

What I wanted to be I could not become
Succumbing to shame
I'm fully numb

Who have I become?
Who have I become?!
Deadbeat
I am a deadbeat



Credits
Writer(s): Palmer Lee, Nora Collins
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